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After so loooooong...im finally not sick anymore...no cough fits no fevers, no nausea, it's a freaking miracle! Now I need to catch up with my projects.
I'm so behind T.T
What great advice for those who don't understand
Health and handicaps
I wanted to do more friendly awareness comics after I made the last comic about the difference between self-pity and depression.

Just like the last one, this is merely a comic about common things I've experienced about the topic, without the scientific explanations about the thousands of handicaps (and subcategories of handicaps) there are in the world.

I'm not a doctor but I had to deal with mentally ill people growing up, including an illness I was born with in a family with several cases of depression. The latest committed suicide was my grandfather's when I was three years old. And I suspect his son/my dad of leaving the same way someday. Not that I wish it, just saying it wouldn't surprise me.

There is plenty of x-ray proof about how a depression brain is clearly different from a healthy brain too. It was kind of a relief for me to know that all the "You're only pretending" people I met were wrong, because I'm really not pretending to be sad. In fact, I hate being sad and being around sad people very much. I prefer comedy and positivity over everything, and will provide my friends with these things too.

But there are also moments where I feel absolutely nothing even doing my favorite hobbies. I noticed on some days it's even hard to move and breathe because of an exhausted will to live. Life is hell if you're incapable of feeling the least amount of joy for many hours or days in a row.

I don't see myself as a special snowflake, I only ask for as much respect and understanding as every other person should get on this planet. Comparing my past self with my present self, I know that a friendly environment is one of the main reasons why I'm slowly getting better. Because of you friendly guys! :heart: Maybe it's possible that I can heal completely someday.
Yep you heard right. My newest program I received for Christmas.  Got it early so I can learn sooner. But LEG me tell you what been going on.

I have been sick for 4 day now, meanwhile, still going to work because I cannot afford to miss any days. Now not only I'm sick, I still am responsible for what I am  set with (taking card of my load of responsibilities in the family house).
Now with everything going on you think it be easy on me since I'm sick. Guess what?

No.
I'm an adult with
responsibility
*mini-waves a rainbow*


Plus that I was a maid of honor for my mother's wedding yesterday so i took up a lot of takes,  cleaning for my baby brothers arrival, running errands, picking up some guest without a car (while runing to help them out with running to the bank), very very last minute request on a run to get items we were short on. Running on NO sleep from how busy I was between the 2 days. Been wanting to play with my new present and actually learn to use it, but with my stamina and health deplenished it was impossible to even try.
(I haven't been able to even touch my art to continue on it-absolutely frustrating)
I helpped my baby brother get ready for the wedding,  take pictures of the cake (three layers) after carefully getting it out of the box (wedding was small and it was at the house)
I've set up skype on my new stepfathers tablet for his brother to witnesses his wedding (I held the device for him to see it happening)
Was in heels I could not walk in for the life of me,
(they wanted me to wear sparkly shoes so I got it cheap JFC the heels and front ends killed my feet I was literally holding on to people when I lost(ing) my balance)
I also ran back and forth making sure they had drinks food etc etc and by then I was too exhausted to eat myself (didn't even eat my small piece of wedding cake)
And literally passed out cold on the couch for an hour or two. Or less idk. (Maybe 30 mins)
Woke up to a surprise visit from my sister and spent time with her on catching up and being a host for her until she left, took the guest I picked up, back home so they could go to work,  and came back to taking care of everything once more and babysitting my lil brother.
After the celebration was over,  I cleaned up the whole mess (kitchen/dinning room/living room) and put up all the food.
Was too tired to do the dishes so I have to do them later.
gathered my lil brothers and my stuff and finally retired to bed.
But I was so driven with need to set up and want to learn my new program,  I stayed up to get it all set up and explored the very confusing,  but beautiful program.
(Love the freaking brushes and perspective rulers with 3d doll figures and items I was having an artgaism) omgawd I'm so crazy for this program even tho I don't know much on how to draw at all! It took me a year just to get my lineart smooth on sai alone because I'm not familiar with digital art.
with everything going on, lack of sleep, exhaustion, overwhelmed, sickness,  and lack of food because I was too sick and tired to eat, I crashed out again soon after (1hr?) Of exploring and testing out the functions (with tutorial videos on even how to use it. )

Man I really love this program. Woke up an hour later to make this to let everyone know whats been going on and why I havent been posting art. (Trust me I'm trying to draw but it's hard drawing humans-spoiler alert of future art-)
Hopefully ill be able to have this last weekend day to myself for heaven sakes.
Anywho, once I grasp somewhat on how to use this program ill draw something christmas related (since my first try on sai was a complete failure).

Thank you for being patient with me, and stay tune for more art <3
Happy Holidays!

(if you read everything, I praise you and give you a cookie~cool points to you~~)

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Kimi Ko Chan
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Nickname: Kimi
(or Kimi-Ko-Chan for fun)
legal name: Kasi Sprecker

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Hello! Welcome to my page. im noobish I know but I am barley becoming active. despite the age of my account.
I live up to my artist name, I've always been indecisive that conflicts with my indecisive passions. and with my forgetfulness and slow learning, I can go at a snails paste~ <3
see the PUNctuation I did there? lol

please be patient with me while I learn everything I should had learned long ago, asap.
much WOVE!
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sarahwidiadopts Featured By Owner 22 hours ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks for the watch<3 :iconyuiglompplz:
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PopRocking Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017
Oh my goodness! Thank you so very much for the watch!!
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Indecissive Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Anytime~~your art style is very cute. Keep it up~~
You deserve it <3
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PopRocking Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017
*has faint heart attack* Game Over [Undertale] THANK YOUUU!!!
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Indecissive Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Nuuu heart attacks..lol
yvw deary
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BoneToDraw Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  New Deviant Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch~Mildly Internally Triggered Disappointed Confused 
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Indecissive Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Anytime! You deserve it ~ <3
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Ketchupberry Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  New Deviant Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the watch Bunny Emoji-87 (Thanks) [V5] 
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Indecissive Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Anytime you deserve it~ <3
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Cold-Creature Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch! :icondragonglomp: 
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